How many times have I tried to start a journal? I’ve lost count. Whether private or public, I never seem to follow through.

I’ve started online journals more than once, only to abandon them after a few months.

I own plenty of notebooks I could use as private journals, but whenever I write in one, I end up tearing out the pages and shredding them a few days later.

I suppose I hate feeling vulnerable, and writing down my thoughts and emotions makes me feel… exposed. I know I need some kind of outlet, but there is so much in my head that unloading it all on friends who have their own lives feels unfair. Is it because I’m an Aquarius? Or because I grew up as the eldest daughter in an Asian household?

All of the above? LOL.

Anyway, here I am again, trying to face my fears for the sake of my sanity. Writing this first entry is already quite a struggle, but…baby steps, baby steps.

Wish me luck.